Friday, April 13, 2012

Holding Your Breath

Do you want to swim with the swimmers
Or sink in the sand?
But don't pass judgement
Because you never know what lies
80,000 leagues under the sea

Time passes
And I see I'm a child
Walking in on parents fucking
I am one in a million
But no, I am one

When I fall so clearly
I learn what I can
But I prefer to let it go in one ear and out the other
Me and my hands
Laugh at your pretension
We sing to each other about nonsense
Though we are bloody and disheveled
Soaking wet

I dream of the day
When I pack up my mind
What little of it I own
And swim into the forever if forever




Friday, March 30, 2012

Rushin On Your Run

Because I think
I started at the end
And the end is so small
And it seems I've been fighting ever since
To push my way back to the middle

And I keep my stitches in
So people won't laugh
When they see how I hide outside

And probably its all the middle

I sleep there every night
Always in circles
And if I get there or not
I wait
Because I can't stop spending all of my time watching all of my time
While we live on the second hand
I am shocked by how slow
We go

And I sit
Like I did as a child
A yesterday ago
With the ghost of a junkie
And the love that made me real
And the juice that made it so eager
To live like Jesus
Too much to break and too much time to do it

I still remember being a child
And I scream to no one
How much I want to go back
And
How much I want to go home

And I know I can tell somebody
But I want to tell everybody
So I don't think I will tell anybody


Friday, March 23, 2012

The Blue Ladies

In a room
Lies two women
Both women
Wear Blue
Both point out
That they both
Wear Blue

She sings a happy song about wearing blue

You are
So happy
Yes
And you know
Why
Is it because
You have
Jesus
In your life?

Yes
It is because
I have
Jesus in my life

The next day both women are wearing blue




Friday, March 16, 2012

Realignment

Car crash
In the land of God
Where worlds collide
I am overtaken by
Unethical beurocracy
And I’m sure I tell it wrong
But I’ve been rewired so many times
I’m lucky I can say it at all

You sleep lightly
Just like me
Knowing those who don’t wake up
You sleep lighter
Just like me
Knowing those who will
And we both see the difference
Measured in fat and heroin
One cut out
Another pasted in
Like a third grade project
That always looked uglier than the rest

And it seems everyone is having so much fun
And you thought you could fool us all
You just might have
We separate in God’s playground
Men to the right
Women in the basement

People underestimate your ability
To live life in a TV
You are so sure
That all that glitters is gold
And when the glass broke
It aimed at all of our eyes
And you came home with the news
And you were never forgiven

The fate of a nation
Lies in a montage of disasters
And as you pull it apart
We see it bleed with the gore of God
And now on his deathbed
Like the one before
He is blinded
By the glass that he broke
Unholy temptation and the (child)ren of a Shiksa

And I can’t feel sorry for you
The world took a backseat
For men who can’t speak
But you turned your head
To avoid the drama
And now I keep my eyes open
To watch that door
Open and shut

A man is hit by a car
The entire world is realigned,
Manually.

Monday, February 6, 2012


Maternal Instinct


What they say is true
You look better in pieces
It’s too difficult to grasp
That
I don’t get enough
From a dated board game

If you look far enough up my nose
You may just see my brain
But inside you’re just as blind as I thought
Whatever you do,
You can’t call it love
So full of today
But yesterday is just as important as tomorrow

I live in a big house
But I sleep in a small box
Everything is so empty its full
And if I let it all catch fire
I’m sure there wouldn’t be much to burn
I turn to the left
And the clock keeps ticking
But is anyone keeping time?

Always tripping up
Takes a toll on your feet
You could trace it all back to a poloroid
But no one has the energy to try
Confusion is trite
Do not, see not

You always taught me
To never let the truth get in the way of your story
And always keep the TV on
Just as long as nobodys watching
Unscrew the lightbulb
And the entire world is yours
Everything looks prettier when the lights are out

I always needed to try so hard
But the clock kept ticking
And no one kept time
Sleep before you wake up
But understand
That it’s to hard  to run in your dreams
And even when you try to open your eyes
Theres too much holding them shut

Live you life
If you call it that
Separate, but not together
Conjoined
And you are alone
In a valley of dolls